You want the Lord to be merciful with you, while you only turn your ears to the devils?! You want to keep hating you "brother" whoever he/she is?! You want to make him/her pay his/her debt and even more?! This is God's answer to you: "‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to.Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
“This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.”" Matthew 18:32-35